finally inspired...

I'm still awake when I should be sleeping...finally sat down at the piano for the first time in weeks to make something up for a song. I still don't know what I have but I definitely think it's something. Man I wish this was easier. But I have got to get some sleep. I have a paper due in the morning, and a long day to get through tomorrow. I wish things weren't so complicated. I just want to relax. Maybe this weekend? Who knows.

The strangest feeling...

Wow, it's all hitting me at once. I have too much on my plate. I kind of love performing and all...but sometimes I'd rather shoot myself. Okay, that was a little dramatic. But let's face it, who wants to sing a Christmas song that makes The Virgin Mary sound like a whore? Not me!! But this song seriously makes it sound like "we" think that teenage pregnancy is a good thing, or like one of "us" is pregnant. It doesn't even mention Mary, it only semi-implies. This isn't fair. I could have arranged a better piece than this. I hope all I'm doing in the background is "Doo-wah ditty ditty dum ditty doo!" Then I have reasons to say I had no idea what the song was about because I'm not singing the solo. I'm sure it'll move someone in the audience though. Tears will be falling, maybe some laughter up in the balcony from some little snooty kids. Thats about all I can handle right there. How much longer am I going to put up with this?!

My niece is my favorite person in the world!

December is here!

Finally....I had a great day. I've been waiting for a great day for a long time. It was one of those days where I didn't let anything bother me. No matter how upset or pissed off someone else was, it wouldn't get in my way! Oh man, I had Starbucks today. I think that was part of the greatness. Long day though.... time for bed. I'm trying on clothes as I usually do at night or when I get something new... in this case it was new boots. They are cute... and unfortunately I'm having a hard time putting them with outfits. I shouldn't try though. I should just go to bed. I have a test to study for and music to learn. But honestly, I don't care right now. I just had the best day and I want to have the best sleep. So after I clean the pile of clothes laying in my floor, I will be able to enjoy it. Finally...