finally inspired...

I'm still awake when I should be sleeping...finally sat down at the piano for the first time in weeks to make something up for a song. I still don't know what I have but I definitely think it's something. Man I wish this was easier. But I have got to get some sleep. I have a paper due in the morning, and a long day to get through tomorrow. I wish things weren't so complicated. I just want to relax. Maybe this weekend? Who knows.

The strangest feeling...

Wow, it's all hitting me at once. I have too much on my plate. I kind of love performing and all...but sometimes I'd rather shoot myself. Okay, that was a little dramatic. But let's face it, who wants to sing a Christmas song that makes The Virgin Mary sound like a whore? Not me!! But this song seriously makes it sound like "we" think that teenage pregnancy is a good thing, or like one of "us" is pregnant. It doesn't even mention Mary, it only semi-implies. This isn't fair. I could have arranged a better piece than this. I hope all I'm doing in the background is "Doo-wah ditty ditty dum ditty doo!" Then I have reasons to say I had no idea what the song was about because I'm not singing the solo. I'm sure it'll move someone in the audience though. Tears will be falling, maybe some laughter up in the balcony from some little snooty kids. Thats about all I can handle right there. How much longer am I going to put up with this?!

My niece is my favorite person in the world!

December is here!

Finally....I had a great day. I've been waiting for a great day for a long time. It was one of those days where I didn't let anything bother me. No matter how upset or pissed off someone else was, it wouldn't get in my way! Oh man, I had Starbucks today. I think that was part of the greatness. Long day though.... time for bed. I'm trying on clothes as I usually do at night or when I get something new... in this case it was new boots. They are cute... and unfortunately I'm having a hard time putting them with outfits. I shouldn't try though. I should just go to bed. I have a test to study for and music to learn. But honestly, I don't care right now. I just had the best day and I want to have the best sleep. So after I clean the pile of clothes laying in my floor, I will be able to enjoy it. Finally...

Thank God almighty I'm home at last!

Just arrived in my driveway. Aren't naps the best? You close your eyes and next thing you know, you're back in your home town, driving past Hot Thomas and the old buildings. Of course Dorothy just had to tap her shoes, but if you think about it, she was just taking a nap during the whole movie! Maybe this whole week was just a dream....

Anyways, I've been printing off my homework to turn in tomorrow. Makes me feel good to have it all done. But I still have to rehearse for my shows coming up. I haven't practiced one bit. I better get on that....as well as the cleaning. Oh Lord....

Am I in love?

I feel that "in love" feeling EVERY time I listen to this song.

I don't actually sing off key...

So my first blog. Wow, never thought I'd be caught dead doing this. Then again if I was dead, I would no longer have to think about how terrible my life is. Thanksgiving just passed. I'm stuck at the beach for the night with my parents since the rest of my family has already moved on to better things. This week has been depressing. I used to come here with my ex of 4 years when we were together. It's been hard realizing for the first time that he's moved on. So should I. I didn't think I would get over that... and the more I listen to my favorite song "Shine" by The Morning Of, the more I think about him and what we had. Nevertheless, being with family was pretty great, as Wrenn's rarely get together anymore. Most of them are dying off, and some getting cancer, some holding grudges as usual, and some just not keeping in touch. North Myrtle Beach was the destination for the week break we got from UGA. However, I would hardly call it a break. Spent most of it working on homework (i.e. huge paper, giant project, "statesticals" homework, and learning music for Noteworthy, a girl's a cappella group from UGA). But life isn't so bad. I finished most of my work, and things seem to be going well in school for me. We'll see how long that lasts. I'm dying to write a song right now, but no keyboard. Always some inconvenience every time I want to do something good with my life. My dad has wanted me to be in a band for years, to perform in Athfest every summer. I just want to make him happy. That's all.